It's been six months today since you left me Baby Girl

Today Baby Girl it’s been six months since you left me in the physical sense. It’s hard to believe a half a year has come and gone how I’ve gotten through the moments is beyond my knowledge of strength. But my darling Angel your in my thoughts daily every where I turn ,everything I see and every song on the radio brings you to my mind. I love you so much to think continuing on without you sometimes is unbearable.
I know your never going to leave me in spirit and will continue to guide me on. Although my life is endless it seems without you beside me in this world. Today I’ll visit that cold ground your buried under to take you a rose, sing you a song and to let you know your never forgotten. Somehow deep inside I know you understand when the tears fall your mommy misses you so.

Life in the New Year without you!

Happy New Year Baby Girl!

My baby girl last year on new years day I remember your happy new years message. My heart will ache so much on this day for more than one reason. First of all because your not here with me and I miss you so much, It will feel as if I’m leaving you behind in 2006. Strange I know that I should feel that way but it’s as if I am struggling to hold onto anything including the year that had you in it. I Love You if there is any way give me a sign you will still be with me in the New year. Love Now and Forever Mommy

Merry Christmas Baby Girl Angel !

Merry Christmas my baby girl thanks for sharing each day you did with me.
Today I will spend thinking of you signing Happy Birthday in person to Jesus. You will always dwell inside my heart, thoughts and prayers. Making it through this Christmas will be tough without you,. I did not add presents under the tree this year in fear of breaking down. But instead I am thinking of our Christmas’s past and all the excitement and joy you brought to my world. Mommy loves you baby girl and always your close to me in spirit.

Misty was my girlfriend I love her and miss her

Misty is the love of my life she was not only my girlfriend but a friend of mine. I remember the first day I met her it was at school and JROTC she walked in with a big smile on her face. Even though my day was messed up she made it better, I pulled her out of formation to help her but I really just wanted to talk with her. She made me so happy I miss that smile of her’s. I loved that smile she had so much energy we started dating on 08/29/05. I remember all the good times we had and the plans we made but most of all I remember love we had between us. Nothing can stop that I will always love her and will never forget her or the times we had. I love her and miss her.
Love Jack

Mourning

Mourning the loss of my child is the worst experience of my life. It is never ending like being in a bad dream you just can’t wake up from.

Grief and the loss of a child

My daughter was 15 years old and died on 08/08/2006

Loss of a child

The worst expierence of my life. You can never imagine how it feels until it happens to you even then if feels like a nightmare.